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Thursday, 23 July 2009
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my whole life i wanted to be different, i wanted to be someone i was not...so i did everything i could to change myself. it worked but now i stop and relize is this the life i really wanted? this past year has been crazy and i have stories that i never thought i would. i cant believe the things that i have done but its too late now i cant take it back and im stuck here.. i dont want to be sick anymore but i dont want to better either...i suppose that happiness is truly unattainable...so whats a girl to do
take care of yourselves <3
you are all beautiful and dont ever let anyone tell you differently!!!
Friday, 15 August 2008
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were back!!! i got our of rehab a couple of months ago and im tired of this shit so me and my friend our back and are ready to lose well keep you posted will our goals and weight loss...
heres some thinspo enjoy...
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Thursday, 31 January 2008
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Shit i have to go into the center!!
Sunday, 27 January 2008
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ITs been a while since ive updated....my doc put me on a med called seroquel its not even perscribed for bulimia its perscribed for bi-polar. i have to go bak to the doc tomorrow and im glad b/c this damn med has made me gain 5 lbs. Now why would a doc give a bulimic meds that can make u gain weight?? ugh im so upset, and the meds havent helped at all! all i do is sleep b/p and gain weight!! the only problem is i would feel guilty not taking it b/c it was $100 and theres over half a bottle full....something better change soon or else im going to go crazy!
on a better note the lady from the bank finally called me! i have to go to an informational meeting on wed hopefully i get the job so that i can quit my job at hell!! wish me luck!
hope everyone is doing well!!
take care!
Sunday, 20 January 2008
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I told my mom that i bulimic...she was like oh i never would have thought that, i geuss she just thought that i didnt eat...i went to my doc she put me on this med seroquel. so far its doing nothing but making me more tired than i already am. even with everyone knowing that i make my self sick, i still do it! i feel so disgusting sometimes, but i cant help it...i like it right after i throw up, my stomach is empty but no hunger paings. its to confusing, idk!! gwah midterms this week! i should have studied today but itstead i laid on the couch all day!
oh well, im bak to purging everything....3x today
sometimes i think i do it just b/c i know that i can...
hope everyone is well!!
pure311
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- Name: pure311
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 12/2/2007
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Maybe one day ill be perfect, but until then i'll keep trying!
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Im down to 102.4 i just hope it doesnt go up!! thanks for all the comments and the support is helping so much
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